1 month

So my not so little brother Zachary is leaving for his mission in ONE MONTH!!! Crazy, i know. The funny thing is that the whole time i was fine with hin leaving, because i know this is what he is supposed to be doing. But now as the days come to an end, I am freaking out. Not crazy like my mother(I MEAN CRAZY) but im just getting really sad. Zack is such an amazing kid and he always makes me smile. We get along so good and im just going to miss that for 2 years. I even told him i had or he had to find someone to replace him or try to so i could have someone to talk to. He just laughed, but I am just sad but so excited for him. I know he willbe such a outstanding missionary..

Now back to me...hehe so i have been working out and i FINALLY got back to track and i have lost some weight and im happy but i have no clothing that fits me, which is sad. I mean i love wearing a smaller size but I am not going to lie, my fat girl clothing was pretty dang cute!! lol but i am slowly buying new clothing but i just want more!!! Track is going amazing i love it.There is one girl that is getting on my last nerve!! Ugh she bugs so bad i just want to throw a shot put at her!!! But its going really good!!

So fresh and so clean

ok everyone please go check this websit out. It is very cool and i am so proud of what these guys have accomplished!!! there is so much more to come but you will just have to keep checkin it out and please GET ON THEIR LEVEL!!! hahaha
http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fhubpages.com%2Fhub%2FThe-Forest-Lab-Only-Kings-Have-Rings&h=c3780

Changes

ok so i have decieded to pretty much leave my "so called friends" and start doing things for myself. I hate the fact that i know go and do everything alone. Movies, dinner, and much more, but im not going to sit around and wait for "so called friends" to call me up. it just made me more mad, sad, upset, depressed, and hurt. So on to be a happier person, or try my best to be one. On a side note i have gone back to the gym!!!! yay, not. but i have done very well since just 8 weeks ago i had knee surgery(Torn ACL) but its going good and i have lost 5 pounds, not that you can even tell but it feels so good! I'm happy, alone or not im just going to deal with it all and make the very best of it.

Lost and Confused

ok so i am feeling a little frustrated about so many things, but one thing that has been at the top for so long is friends....I honestly feel as though i am just peoples friends when its convient for them or when i have hockey tickets or anything! And its just such an emotional thing since my dad is living in Canada and i feel as though i have nobody now! People always so they will call and then it never happens and im just so tired of trying to be friends with people when i have to do all the work!!! I have one-way friendships with everyone except with my sister!! But she is married and has her own life!! im just wishing i was already living in Canada so i can really have no friends and stop worring about all this crap! Sorry i just needed to get this off my chest!